Secret Sin: The Truth About The Woman Who Cheats

Today we’re talking about something I’ve wanted to make an episode about for a long time: infidelity. Specifically, the woman who cheats.

If that’s you, I already know you’re carrying a crushing weight — the secrecy, the panic, the shame society piles on top. Because we’ve all been told that cheating is the ultimate, unforgivable relationship sin. But after years of coaching and hundreds of women, here’s what I’ve come to believe: cheating is the symptom, not the start. It almost never shows up in a vibrant, healthy relationship. It shows up after years of what I call the invisible sins — chronic emotional neglect, stonewalling, contempt, weaponized incompetence, being starved of affection and visibility. The partner who looks great on paper while you slowly disappear inside your own home.

This is a judgment-free zone. I’m not here to make excuses or decide who’s right and who’s wrong. I’m here to explore what was actually happening, what was missing, and how you move forward.

So I ask the questions I ask in coaching. Before the affair ever started, what were you tolerating every day? Who did you get to be with someone else that you weren’t allowed to be in your own relationship? Was it about the sex, or the feeling of being wanted and prioritized after years of feeling like furniture?

Here’s the part almost nobody says: the perpetual giving is what created the vacuum in the first place. You were never taught how to know what you want. You were taught to perform — be a good girl, look good, keep it all together — and then you woke up one day feeling nothing. That’s not selfishness. That’s what happens after a lifetime of being told your desire is dirty and your job is to keep everyone else okay.

I don’t do the shame-to-guilt thing you see all over the internet. Guilt is just as damaging as shame. And no — if you’re listening to this, you are not a narcissist. What you need isn’t more punishment. You’ve been holding yourself accountable every single day, or you wouldn’t be here. What you need is to learn how to have your own back, how to move through the heavy feelings instead of shoving them down, and how to turn want and desire back on in every part of your life. When those things come online, everything else gets easier.

You were never the problem. And you are not the only one. I promise you that.

The free class: I’m teaching a class on all of this called The Anti-Hero — because you can be the hero of your own life even if nobody else sees it. Monday, August 24th at 12:00 PM Pacific, about an hour, completely free. Sign up at AmandaHess.ca/shame1 or through the link in the show notes. I’d love to see you there.

Takeaways:

1. Infidelity is often viewed as the ultimate sin, but let’s be real: relationships can be super complicated and messy, with many hidden issues lurking beneath the surface.
2. Cheating is more of a symptom than the root cause of relationship problems, highlighting the need for deeper self-awareness and understanding of personal desires.
3. Many women don’t even know what they want due to societal pressures to perform and be ‘good,’ leaving them feeling empty and unfulfilled in their relationships.
4. In the quest for happiness, it’s crucial to learn how to advocate for yourself and embrace your desires, rather than feeling guilty or ashamed for wanting more from life.
5. Emotional neglect and invisible cruelties in relationships often lead to infidelity, as individuals seek validation and fulfillment outside their primary partnership.
6. To truly move forward from any shame or guilt surrounding infidelity, it’s essential to tackle those feelings head-on, developing a stronger sense of self and what you truly desire.

Links referenced in this episode:

1. amandahess.ca/Shame1